I think I need to
address my desires, goals, and efforts, even if for no other reason than to
place it somewhere to reference my own progress. I know I'm a very late bloomer. My mind and ambition seem to work at the
speed of tectonic or glacial movement.
Slow, inevitable, but unrelated to the immediate scale of time around
it. The time I've been spending toward
this end has given some valuable illumination.
There is hope. It's been a while
since I've really considered some hope as possible.
What would be my
dream job or ultimate goal? I would love
to make a living off of my creative endeavors.
This has always fallen around some facet of writing. The writing I do all the time and have
considerable drive to perform has been poetry and exposition, along with
opinions. I have discovered it is for
some reason difficult to write fiction.
I think focus and fear of becoming obsessed make me avoid pouring too
strongly into that. I still would like
to, but the reality seems to be that other steps may need to happen first to
enable more.
I've been searching
and evaluating freelance opportunities for writing: articles, blogs,
whatever. I am finally getting onboard
to do "real" searching. I
think journalism is the way to go, for me.
The style and content are slanted toward my usual writing type. I am pushing to put writing in those certain
gaps where other distractions have taken control. It is honestly slow-going but I have begun to
see gradual benefit and progress there.
Things have just gotten drastically boring. I find very few books or movies or anything
can hold my attention or interest. I
want to make stuff now. The first part
of it is to improve the skills and find out what to do with it.
I have given myself
a project: A Poem Per Day. I am going to
write a singular poem each day, entirely original, and perhaps never to find
itself anywhere outside this project. This
serves many purposes: practice, keeping original, setting a pace and schedule,
etc.
I also want to find
some time each day to look up opportunities, and maybe catch a paying job which
will hopefully line up with all this emerging direction. I've also been going over old writings and
starting to form another poetry publication, perhaps start taking my work at
into the masses. I'm just chipping away
at the three columns of: Dream, Plan, and Reality.
I thank any and all
for their help and encouragement.
